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What if…?

Married does not equal dead. Just because a woman has a husband doesn’t mean she packs her sexual fantasies in bubble wrap and shoves them in a box. There is nothing in those marriage vows that restricts your imagination. Fantasies are healthy. They keep the magic alive and give an outlet to all those wicked little thoughts that creep up during the day. It doesn’t mean you are going to be unfaithful, or even that you want to be unfaithful. It means you are human.

Maybe you have a secret obsession with Nathan Fillion’s butt. Maybe you lust after a certain singer who makes your panties melt. Maybe that rough-handed mechanic could rotate your tires juuuuuust right. That hottie on the subway? Pure mind-candy. That soccer-dad who coaches the opposing team who does wonderful things for those cotton shorts? Yummy.

Do you really think all those adult toy sites are selling vibrators ONLY to single women? Uh, no. And men, if you think your wife only has fantasies about you…*rolling on floor laughing* Yeah, right. Like you never look at Angelina Jolie and have things stand at attention. Does your wife feature in EVERY naughty thought that pops in your mind? Of course not. We know this and accept it. Human beings have a wonderful capacity to imagine.

There are those marriages where one partner insists they never think about another person. I don’t believe that. I think in those cases they just aren’t comfortable sharing those fantasies. And that is okay. But in many marriages, a woman actually shares some of her fantasies with her husband. He shares his with her. They use those fantasies as foreplay, to make their sex life richer, help strengthen their marriage.

But what if… what if you told your husband a fantasy and discovered he had the same fantasy?

That is the premise for COMING CLEAN.

Vivi and Grant Michaelson are a normal married couple. They are in love with each other and neither wants to stray. They hold nothing back from each other, sharing property, checking accounts and their fantasies. Those fantasies help make their marriage stronger. Then Vivi tells Grant about a scorching ménage fantasy she has about his best friend Cade. And Grant admits to his own desires concerning Cade.

Quite the admission for a straight man, I must tell you.

Then Vivi has another What if thought. What if this shared-threesome-fantasy actually could come true?

Well, then you would have COMING CLEAN.

DIRTY LAUNDRY just got a whole lot dirtier….

Grant and Vivi Michaelson share everything in their marriage: love, commitment—and their wildest sexual desires. But their relationship is tested when Vivi admits she wants a threesome with Grant’s old friend Cade, proposing their annual trip to the lake as the perfect opportunity to fulfill her fantasy.

All three of them are aroused by the idea. Vivi and Cade have long felt a smoldering attraction to each other…and Grant and Cade have hidden an illicit desire for decades. Going through with the ménage will test their boundaries, reveal old secrets…and maybe tear them apart. After all, there might be room for Cade in bed, but is there room for a third in their marriage?

ADULT EXCERPT:

She snuggled up beside him, kissing his heaving chest. She swooped her long hair over her shoulder and propped her chin on her laced fingers. “Anything?”

With his eyes closed, he felt her stare rather than saw it. “Anything.”

He didn’t need his sight to know her cheeks colored when she turned her face away and said, “Never mind.”

“Come on, what?”

“I just…I don’t want you to get mad.”

The silky skin of her back slid under his palm. “I won’t.”

“Promise?” she asked. He nodded and she took a slow breath. “I was kind of…fantasizing.”

He cracked one eye and smiled. “Care to share it?”

A slight firming of her muscles tightened his stomach in anticipation. Vivi fingered his hair. “Okay, here goes…remember your promise. I was thinking about…a threesome…with two men.”

Grant cocked his head at her. “Was I one of them? Ouch!”

Vivi smoothed the lock of hair she’d just tugged. “Of course you were.”

“So who was the other guy? That actor that makes you drool?”

“Does it really matter?” Vivi nibbled her lip and looked away.

“Yeah, I want to know.” She wouldn’t turn her face toward him and her evasiveness piqued his curiosity. “Vivi, tell me.”

She brought her gaze back to his. “It was Cade.”

His bones turned to sheetrock. “Cade? Uh, what was he—I mean, what were we doing?”

“You’re mad.”

“No, I’m not. I’m just curious.”

“I was riding him. And kissing you.” Her fingers caressed his cheekbone, across his lips and over his Adam’s apple. “Just before I came on his cock, you moved behind me and—”

“Fucked your ass?” His voice growled deeper as the fantasy image burst into his mind. His spent balls began to tingle, blood rerouting to stiffen his softened cock.

“Uh, no.” Vivi tugged the sheet over her hip. “Although I might borrow that fantasy for later…after I’ve had a bit to drink. You bit me the way I like. I could feel your fingers on my clit, your teeth in my neck, and the pulse of Cade’s cock inside me. That’s like the ultimate high. I guess it’s hard for a man to understand but it was…wow.”

“I can imagine.” Something taboo, forbidden and tempting swelled in Grant’s chest. Her shared fantasy took on new life in his mind. A startling and vivid picture painted itself before his mind’s eye and his mouth took off without thought. “I have imagined it.”

Vivi sat up, leaning over him, a questioning look on her face. “You’ve fantasized about us with another man?”

“No.” Sudden fear held his tongue. Did he dare tell her what flashed in his head? It was the first time he’d ever let those words be fully thought out, let alone spoken. His hands buried in soft hair, hips thrusting toward the hot, tempting mouth sucking him. That hair morphs from auburn to blond, the lips around his cock sliding from feminine to masculine, the fingers cupping his balls shifting from slender and soft to callused and strong. “Promise you won’t get mad…or anything?”

“Promise.” She smiled.

“I…when you said…” Grant sucked in a deep breath and blurted it out. “I wonder what being with Cade would be like…me with Cade.”

“You mean like…as lovers?”

“Yeah.” He braced for her disapproval.

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The Lion of Kent

Today sees the release of our novella Lion of Kent – a medieval M/M romance set in the tumultuous twelfth century against a backdrop of politics and treason.

The character of William Raven first appeared in Alex’s short story ‘Deliverance’, and both Alex and William decided there was more to tell of William’s life. Alex invited me to co-write with him, and as I love the scheming shenanigans of the Plantagenet dynasty, I jumped at the chance. Taking as our themes the typical courtly pursuits of a medieval nobleman – hunting, tourneys, and crusading – we hope to bring you three linked tales in the Lion’s Pride series, spanning William’s life and loves.

Here’s an excerpt from Lion of Kent.

England, 1176

William gave no quarter. He struck blow by blow—fast, vicious, with little technique, but enough strength to make up for it, and an uncontrollable anger. John had hit him so hard in the knee that everything felt numb there, and William’s reaction was as much pain as surprise, which made him fly into a rage. Everything around him blurred until he was aware of nothing but his enemy. The pain radiated through him, firing his anger. His arm ached with tiredness, yet there was always another blow in him, and even though he could see fear in the other squire’s eyes, it didn’t occur to him to relent.

“Enough! William!”

He ignored the voice, refusing to obey the order. He wanted John to yield, wanted him to fall to his knees, to give up, to beg for mercy.

“William!”

Strong hands gripped his sword arm, one hand on his elbow, the other on his wrist. He whirled around, wincing when the instructor used the grip against him, changed the angle and almost made him drop to his knees. He gave up the sword, snarled, but there was also a yelp of pain.

“Sir Robert is back, you bloody fool,” Ulric hissed and let him go after a punch in the arm.

William straightened, considered taking up the training sword again, but then he realised what the instructor had said, and turned.

Men on horseback had entered the cobbled courtyard. Richly clothed, swords and shields at their sides as if they’d been worried about robbers on the road, they made a bright display against the dull stonework of the castle keep. Sir Robert de Cantilou was their leader, and William thought his lord had changed much since the day he’d left his lands. When had that been? Five years ago?

Robert’s dark hair looked now like it would in winter, in a heavy snowfall, the colour more grey than black even though his lord wasn’t an old man. He sat proud in the saddle and, William thought with a hint of shame, he wore an expression of amusement. Sir Robert must have seen him fight and lose his control.

“Well, then, now that the squires are listening, too… It’s good to be back.” Sir Robert slid off his horse, hands adjusting his sword belt. The household gathered in the yard, regarding their master in amazement. He’d arrived completely unannounced, and William wondered why that was. Why had he not sent a messenger first so everything was prepared?

Instead of lowering his gaze, William stared open-mouthed at his lord. Sir Robert was tanned, his blue eyes seemingly glowing in the dark face, and his rich red clothes played around his form in strange, outlandish splendour. His sword hilt now bore a large jewel in the pommel, and the heavy rings on his gloves sparkled in the late autumn sun. He must have made a fortune abroad, but it wasn’t the flaunting of wealth that impressed William so much. Instead, it was Robert’s bearing.

Five years ago Sir Robert had seemed cold and distant, and though he was a lord admired and respected by the people of his manor as well as by his peers, he had too little humour and too much impatience. Always fair, always just, but somehow lacking. The death of his wife had not improved matters. Rather than seeking a new bride, Robert had announced he would go on crusade. He took with him five senior knights and left the castle and his children in the capable hands of his widowed sister, Lady Alais.

In William’s limited experience, the Robert of five years ago had been much the same as any other noble, but now he’d changed. It was said that the Holy Land made its mark on a man’s soul, scouring away the bad and revealing the good. According to the Church’s rhetoric, no one—except the heathen Saracens—could walk on the same soil as the Christ and not be humbled and remade for the better. William had been sceptical, but looking on Sir Robert now, the claims seemed to be true. Never had William seen a man more confident and assured. This was how a knight should be—composed, gracious, benevolent.

He stepped forward as Robert strode past. “It’s good to see you back, sir.”

Robert paused, then glanced over his shoulder. His sharp gaze raked over William as if remembering the gangly youth he’d been and fitting that old image against the man who stood before him now.

“And you, William,” Robert said. “Seems we have a young lion in the dog kennel.”

Aiming for a Sense of Place

One of the things I want in a historical is a sense of place as well as a strong sense of time. In Lion of Kent, most of the action takes place in Sir Robert’s household and the surrounding woodlands, so—like many historical writers—we had to ‘build’ an imaginary castle. The best way to convey a sense of place is, of course, to write about a real location, tweaked accordingly to fit the status of our twelfth century lord.

Now, the UK has more castles than there are days in the year, with constructions ranging from scrappy baileys with collapsing walls to earthworks to massive fortresses still inhabited by nobility. Some of them are even in Kent. However, the castle I used as a model for Sir Robert’s household was Warkworth Castle in Northumberland, a place I’d visited back in February.

Lion of Kent is set in 1176, and though Warkworth Castle was constructed at a slightly later date, the basics of medieval castle building changed little in the interim. Warkworth was laid out around 1180-1200 by Roger fitz Roger and developed by its subsequent owners, the powerful Percy family, earls (later dukes) of Northumberland. The great tower was built for the first earl in 1377 by the master mason of Durham Cathedral, and it’s the interior of the great tower that provided the inspiration for a pivotal moment in the story. In this snippet, the hero, young squire William Raven, is returning to the festivities in the great hall when he hears an odd noise:

As he made his way back to the great hall, William heard a sound. He stopped, listening, filtering out the shouts and music from the hall and the hum of noise from the kitchens. At length the strange sound came again, and this time he identified it as two men speaking in urgent whispers. Curious as to who had slipped out of the hall or kitchen for a conversation, William followed the whispers around the dark walls.

The corridor narrowed and made a dog-leg, then opened out again near the central light well that ran for the full height of the keep. On each floor two windows overlooked the light well, which provided illumination and fresh air to what would otherwise be the darkest, stuffiest rooms in the castle. Now William understood why the voices sounded so strange—they were distorted by an echo.

William approached the window that opened into the light well, keeping to the shadows so he wouldn’t be seen by the whisperers. He angled himself against the recess of the window and peered up, wondering if the voices came from Sir Robert’s private chambers or the guest rooms above.

Another low murmur, and William drew back. The men were standing directly opposite him on the other side of the light well. From the direction of their voices, the whisperers must be standing in the lower part of the chapel, the section reserved for the household servants. It was as good a place as any for a clandestine meeting, and he wondered who they were and what they were doing.

Light wells are often used in castles not just to provide daylight for interior rooms, but also to collect rainwater to sluice out latrines. Visitors often don’t realise the light wells exist—and certainly I’d never paid any attention to them before!—but the construction of the great tower at Warkworth made a real feature of the light well, which does indeed have a window from a corridor looking across the light well into the chapel.

This is the castle chapel from the direction of the light well—you can see the corbels that originally supported the balcony/mezzanine floor where the lord and his family would have gathered to worship, and at the front you can see the piscina and the edge of the sedile as well as the dais for the high altar. The sacristy is tucked away just to the right. You can see how narrow the chapel is—now imagine it full of household servants. At the height of the Percy’s power, Warkworth had a permanent staff of 166. Our fictional Sir Robert would of course have far fewer servants and retainers, but even so, it’d be quite a crowd!

Throughout Lion of Kent we’ve tried to give a flavour of the hustle and bustle of daily life in a castle, from the food and drink on the table to the procedure for bath times to a knighting ceremony to the various types of entertainment—singing and dancing as well as that most masculine of entertainments, the hunt. We hope you’ll join us in sharing the medieval experience.

- Kate Cotoner (www.katecotoner.co.uk)

Finding the story in history

My professor was a storyteller. He was a huge inspiration, even if we were slightly scared of him. He’d lunge at you in the small room, point a finger and ask a random question about the Middle Ages. I’ll never forget when it was my turn, first week of my studies: “Who were the Salians?”

I blinked, shocked after having escaped the hugely crowded law studies auditoriums. There was a professor that not only saw me but addressed me, asking a question. What the hell?

My response “a dynasty” was as startled as automatic. I’ve always been into the Middle Ages and read a lot before I’d embarked on the “breadless” subject of Medieval and Ancient History, despite my family moaning about how they didn’t respect me for dropping out of law (having a lawyer in the family could have saved them a lot of money after all).

It was something of a received wisdom to “sit well to the back” in Professor H’s lectures. He’d do that. Sit down on your table and grill you. He radiated boundless energy, sheer glee at his topic, true passion, which can be overwhelming when you’re a first semester still trying to work out what dishes in the canteen are actually edible and which should be avoided at all costs, whereas the other professors were true academics – dry, razor sharp and much more concerned with dates and factual accuracy than what people were like, what they thought and felt.

Over my studies, I was constantly drawn to Professor H’s lectures. It was not only the topics – he did a lot of social history and history of ‘mentality’ – how people and certain groups thought and saw themselves – but the way he delivered the lectures. Walking around, talking like an ancient orator, discussing with himself as much as with us, and asking questions. I remember him telling a story about a duke and a king and a duchess, and the duchess leaving the duke for the king. He got really worked up about this, voice vibrating with emotion, face flushed, saying things like “How could she?” and “That faithless bastard.” I only later learnt that he was going through a difficult divorce himself.

He was the only professor who thought that fiction was a legitimate way to talk about history. “There’s “story” in “history”, you know,” he said one day in the canteen. (In German, “Geschichte” – history – and “Geschichte” – story – is the same word). He was the only professor whom I told that I was writing historical novels. The others sniffed at the idea of leaving the purity of facts behind and asking “what if”?

Back then, I wanted to be a serious historian, and they told you that fiction was not serious. Certainly not serious history. But I just couldn’t help getting inspired by a throwaway comment of Professor H’s. I can now confess that my frantic scribbling in his lectures wasn’t note-taking.

In many ways, Professor H, with his reckless passion and hard questions, was the inspiration behind writing historical fiction. I wondered about the people that had no voice, who lived in the cracks of medieval society, whose life depended on keeping their loves hidden, and how they still managed to stay true to themselves and find a way to live. Those questions turned into stories.

Fourteen years separate “Who were the Salians?” from Lion of Kent. I left university with a degree that wasn’t quite as breadless as my family expected, even though I left academia – and didn’t, because I’ve taken all my history books and keep buying more.

I still sometimes email Professor H, and his passion is still as alive as it was back then. It’s heartening to think that he’ll sit on a first semester’s table and ask them unexpected questions, and that he’ll inspire more writers to move beyond pure facts and find the story in history.

- Aleksandr Voinov
Please visit Alex’s website, his blog, or his Facebook!

How eBooks are made (not born)

By Jenny Bullough, Digital Content Manager, and ebook data geek

Last week Angela posed a question on Twitter, asking “do you have a question for an editor?” One of the responses came from @thedaisyharris: Why yes, I do! Why does it take so long to get an e-book out? I’d think once it’s edited it could go live. What am I missing? Since I manage the production of ebooks for Harlequin and Carina Press, Angela put me on the spot! Ready? Here we go!

I have to preface this by emphasizing that every publisher is different, so the processes each house follows are different, but in giving you a topline overview of the process we use at Harlequin and Carina my aim is to explain why it’s not immediate for most any publisher.

Technically, you’re right – once the book is edited, it could be converted immediately to ePub (the universal, open source format created by the International Digital Publishing Forum) and go live. But most publishers want to make sure that the book is as clean, nice-looking, and error-free as possible, to ensure a good reading experience; and doing that takes a bit more time.

In terms of our process, once the final, edited, formatted manuscript has been delivered as an electronic file, it has to be formatted (or deformatted if it’s a PDF typeset for print) – things like tabs, line breaks, asterisks, etc that don’t always render the way you want them to in ebook formats need to be tweaked so that the miracle of reflowable text can happen during conversion. That can take a couple of hours per file depending on the length and complexity of the book.

Then it has to be converted to ePub.  Believe it or not, it can take a few hours to run a simple scripted conversion software, then run the final file against the IDPF ePub checker to make sure it adheres to the format specifications (if it doesn’t, ebooksellers won’t accept the file). If it doesn’t pass, it’s back to square one – reformat and reconvert, then try again.

Once it passes the ePub checker, the final ePub file is sent to our team of proofers for quality control check – our last chance to catch any typos, formatting errors, or stray code that will detract from the reading experience. If there are errors, it has to go back for correction, then be QC’d again, and lather rinse repeat.

When the ePub file has passed QC and is finalized and looking all pretty, the file has to be sent to ebooksellers like Amazon, Barnes & Noble, Books on Board, Diesel eBooks, and many many more. Each of these ebooksellers has a different process for accepting files and ingesting them into their databases. This is often done by FTP and while it’s relatively quick to transfer one file or a few files, most ebooksellers will only accept files in big batches; so if there’s a typo or error in one file, the whole batch of 100+ ePubs waits until they’re all ready for public sale.

The other tricky part is marrying up the ePub file with the correct metadata, marketing images (ie cover thumbnails), and in the case of some ebooks, preparing special promotions, discounts, or other marketing material before the ebook goes live and on-sale.

So it can take at least a couple of days from final, edited file to sending the file to vendors – and that’s assuming there are no complications or errors. Sounds simple enough, right? You could bang that out on a slow Monday and have it on sale on Wednesday if all goes well. Where things get sticky is when you multiply this process by 300 or so – a typical monthly production load for the Harlequin digital team.

Hopefully this answers your question! If not, let us know in the comments!

~Jenny

Ask an editor: Voice or Grammar?

This week on Twitter, I put out a call on my personal Twitter account and asked people if they had a burning question for an editor, because I needed blog topics for my personal blog. The response was so enthusiastic, that I decided to use a few of the topics for the Carina blog as well, so I could get to more of them faster. If you want to see what I’ve covered so far, you can visit here for those posts.  On Monday, Jenny is going to be covering one on the production side of things, but today I tackle an editorial question. @stacey_kennedy asked: What is more important the voice or the grammar?

I’m sure there are other editors out there with different opinions, but I believe, at least initially, the grammar is most important? Why? Because without good grammar, your voice is going to appear unpolished and more…remedial. Quite often, one of my initial issues with a manuscript, after it not starting in the right place, is poor writing. Poor writing that comes not from the inability to plot or tell a story, but comes from poorly constructed sentences, extreme misspellings, dialogue that doesn’t fit with the stature/background/vocation of the character, and heinous abuse of punctuation. These are things that actually both add to voice in a negative way, as well as detract from the voice, and thus, the story.

Now, it needs to be said that when I refer to grammar, I mean a good basic grasp of grammar and how to polish your own grammar quirks out of your writing so you have your character’s voice, instead of yours. I’m not suggesting that you feel you need to be a grammar expert, or have a manuscript so polished, you barely seem to need a copy editor. I’m just talking an attention to crafting sentences, narrative and dialogue.

Is voice important? Heck yeah! Voice is that undefinable *thing* that makes editors keep reading, that makes readers pick up the book, that makes the word of mouth grow and gathers fans by the droves. Voice is incredibly important. It’s why authors like JR Ward, Stephanie Meyer, Dan Brown and others are NY TImes bestsellers. Readers love the voice of their stories. But because I believe grammar is one of the building blocks of voice, that’s why I say it’s more important to start. It’s one of those things that, once you’ve got it down, isn’t really an issue at all!

Are there exceptions? Sure. I can think of a particular author who’s gotten a number of multi-book deals and has a nice fan following, despite her seeming inability to grasp grammar (and what I consider unpolished writing, but who am I to argue with her sales?) So bad grammar won’t always affect your chances, but I’ll refer back to this post, where I suggest you not believe you’ll be the Cinderella story. We call them exceptions for a reason!

Signs Amy Loves a Submission

by Amy Wilkins, Harlequin Digital Content team member & Carina Press Acquisition team

A couple weeks ago I read a Carina Press submission that I loved. It may be my favorite of any Carina book — and surprisingly, it was a from a genre I don’t normally read. Yet I knew within the first couple chapters that I loved it — and here were the signs….

1) I start writing the blurb as I read it. Are you one of those people that when you love a book you want others to love it just as much? I am, and it shows in how enthusiastic I am to write the book blurb for it. While reading the book, things jumped out at me that would be great for the book description: Phrases that show the author’s voice. Ways to describe the characters. Which plot elements could hook the reader. I was excited about this story, I wanted to start a blurb that would excite readers to pick it up, too.

2) I forget about all the other books I want to read. I’m the sort of reader who always has 2 or 3 books on the go. A couple on my e-readers (yes, I own two!) that I keep in my purse, and another on my nightstand. And those are just the books I’ve actually started reading, not to mention all the ones waiting for the future. It takes a strong story to make me forget those other books on my TBR list.

3) I don’t dare skip any of it – even if I stay up way too late to finish the whole thing. Imagine me the night before the next Carina acquisition meeting. I had about 400 pages (resized on my Sony Reader so that probably seems like more than it actually was) left of the manuscript to read. By page 150, I was sure I was going to want this book to be acquired. I could have skipped ahead to make sure the book didn’t fall apart half-way through or the ending was completely bogus. But by then I loved the story so much that I didn’t want to miss a single moment of these characters. So I kept reading waaaay too late – and had to drink way too much coffee the next morning as a result.

I’m sure I’ll be back on the blog in a couple months when this book is about to be released to tell you what it was about this particular submission I adored. But until then, why don’t you tell me your top signs that you are loving the book you’re reading?

~Amy

More Carina Press audiobooks added!

Remember when I promised you that I would let you know as more Carina Press titles became available in audiobook format? (You should, it was only a couple weeks ago. :) ) Well, here’s me making good on that promise! I’m very happy to say that two more of our fabulous launch titles are now available for your listening pleasure. Check out Audible.com, iTunes or Amazon.com. today!

And just like last time, I’ve got some sneak-peak samples below:

Love and Scandal by Donna Lea Simpson is a delightful historical romance set in Victorian London. The virginal heroine writes a bestselling novel brimming with passion and seduction, but an infamous rake gets the credit for it instead! It’s hard for us to imagine today, but back then it was utterly scandalous not only for a woman to write a novel — but put her name on it!

Rivals for Love by Eve Vaughn is an erotic romance that will make your ears blush. It’s a super-steamy ménage story about one woman pursued by two men. They are rivals, and neither is willing to lose. She loves them both and starts to wonder if she really has to choose between them… Sounds juicy!

Happy listening!

An excerpt from The Sergeant’s Lady

The Sergeant's Lady cover

For my last post today, I wanted to share a brief excerpt from The Sergeant’s Lady.  It’s from Chapter 5, in the aftermath of my hero and heroine’s first kiss:

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The next morning they prepared to march while dawn was but a faint hope of light. As teamsters hitched their oxen and soldiers bustled about, Anna waited by a wagon, conversing politely with one of the wounded, an artillery lieutenant she had met several months ago in winter quarters.

Footsteps approached behind her, a tread already familiar. “Mrs. Arrington, ma’am?”

Never before had she heard Sergeant Atkins sound so tentative. She turned to face him, straightening her bonnet and smoothing her dress. “Yes, Sergeant?”

“May I have a word with you, if you please?”

“Of course.” She swallowed and forced a smile. “Lieutenant Ellis, if you’ll excuse me.”

He smiled back, inoffensively flirtatious. “As long as you promise to visit me again soon.”

She agreed and followed Sergeant Atkins to the edge of the rough road. They were in plain sight of the hurrying soldiers, teamsters and orderlies, but in the dim light and bustle of preparation, they were inconspicuous.

For a moment they surveyed each other in strained silence. There was something different about him. It puzzled her briefly, but then she realized it was his uniform. She’d never seen him look so correct before. His green jacket was buttoned all the way up to his throat where his black stock was neatly fastened. That distracting saber scar of his, which last night she had imagined tracing with her tongue, was hidden. No bare head or jaunty foraging cap today; instead he wore his tall shako. Even his shoes looked as though he’d given them a polish, and his red-and-black sash—like his stripes, a mark of his rank—was carefully knotted and settled just above his lean hips with geometric precision. A lump formed in her throat. He looked like a model for a toy soldier.

He stared past her. “Mrs. Arrington, ma’am,” he said with the air of a rehearsed speech, “I owe you an apology for my behavior last night. I took advantage of you. I’m ashamed of it, and it won’t happen again.”

“Don’t apologize,” she blurted. How could he be the one apologizing when it was her fault? Their eyes met, and she swallowed hard. She’d never seen more beautiful eyes on a man, so golden and intent.

He narrowed them. “But I kissed you. I had no right—”

Her gaze dropped to his lips. “I kissed you back,” she murmured, then wished the words unsaid. He must realize she had hardly been a passive recipient of his attentions, but she cursed her wayward tongue for acknowledging it so openly.

His parade-ground posture relaxed a trifle, and he was recognizably her Sergeant Atkins again. She released the breath she hadn’t meant to hold. But he shook his head. “We can’t let it happen again.”

She closed her eyes. “I know.” She looked at him again and forced herself to speak in a level voice. “But do not insult me by apologizing for something that was as much my doing as yours. I wish it hadn’t happened, because I wanted you for my friend on this journey, and now—” she spread her hands, “—it’s impossible. I’m sorry.”

He smiled, achingly wistful. “If I’m not allowed to apologize, neither are you.”

“That wasn’t an apology. That was regret.”

“Oh.” Abruptly his eyes widened, his nostrils flared slightly, and he turned stiff and correct again. “Lieutenant Montmorency.”

Anna whirled around to discover the young officer watching them from no more than four feet away, his expression hovering between accusation and bewilderment.

“Has Sergeant Atkins been disturbing you, ma’am?” he asked.

Anna thought quickly. What explanation could she give for the inappropriate familiarity that had doubtless been obvious to this interloper? “Not at all, Lieutenant,” she said. “He only asked me if I could think of anything to make the journey easier for Juana, since it is so soon after her confinement.” She turned back to Sergeant Atkins and tried to infuse her voice with both the warmth of friendship and the coolness of superior rank. “And I shall be glad to do anything I can.”

Something flickered in his eyes—amusement? Admiration? “Thank you, ma’am. You’re very kind.”

“Very well, then. Sergeant, Lieutenant, I bid you good morning.” She walked slowly toward her donkey, her head held high, her mind in a whirl.
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Why I write warriors

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I didn’t grow up as an Army brat, but my family has a long tradition of military service. My father enlisted in the Army after high school and was stationed in West Germany for two years before coming home to marry my mother. (Remember West Germany and the Cold War? That world is starting to seem almost as distant as the eras I choose for my stories!) One of my older brothers is a former Marine, and another started West Point the same year I started kindergarten. (Believe it or not, he’s my youngest older brother. I was my parents’ surprise unexpected bonus child when they thought they were done!)

Going back through the generations, my ancestors fought in the Civil War, the American Revolution, and who knows what conflicts before that–since I’m part Scottish, English, and French, it’s entirely possible I had ancestors on both sides of many of the battles I read about in history class.

So I come by my interest in military history honestly, but the soldier who was most on my mind and heart during the creation of The Sergeant’s Lady was my oldest nephew. He’s an officer in the National Guard, and when I wrote my first draft, he was stationed in Iraq. When I decided to submit to Carina, he was serving in Afghanistan, arriving home a month to the day before the book sold. Writing a soldier hero was a way to honor him and men like him. Tactics, technology, and uniforms change, but courage and honor are constants.

Incidentally, when I say that technology changes, I don’t just mean the obvious things like weaponry. While Nathan was in Afghanistan, every time I heard about something horrible happening there, I’d rush to Facebook to check how recently he’d updated his status. Two centuries ago I would’ve had to wait weeks or months.

Back when I was first writing The Sergeant’s Lady, I decided that if it ever sold, I would donate a portion of my royalties to a group providing help to soldiers or veterans in need. At the risk of drifting into political territory, I think as a society we’re all too often better at flag-waving than at any kind of tangible show of gratitude to the men and women who sacrifice so much for their country.

I’ve decided to donate to the Yellow Ribbon Fund, an organization that provides services, lodging, and activities for injured service members and their families at Walter Reed and Bethesda Naval Hospital. I hope some of my readers will consider supporting them or a similar organization as well. Because wars change, but warriors don’t.

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